So this week has been hard– I really feel like my life could not be more blessed but for some reason I’ve been going through a bit of depression- It’s kinda crazy and unless you experience it, you don’t understand how you can know that things are fine and good but you don’t feel that they are- There’s a war going on inside your body and you kinda have no control over any of it– I am crying and lethargic and down but in my mind I know I shouldn’t be, that I’m so blessed and that I’m doing an okay job most the time- but than my body comes back with a no your not, your failing at everything, you’ll never get anywhere, no one likes you breakdown- let me tell you it’s so much fun- and it seems to happen bout once a month :)

Anyways so it’s been hard this week and today I’m finally feeling a little bit more like myself (kinda helps that Dave’s been home at least half the day to love me even though I’m crazy:))
So today I’ve enjoyed the kids more and learned a little more in photoshop today- *which seems like it will be a never ending learning journey- it’s so powerful and there seems to be all these little new things to discover- I must say though that Illustrator is gradually winning my heart over photoshop, especially in the design sense*

(before- unedited)

I’ve wanted to learn for awhile how to edit the eyes and make them pop/sparkle a little more so that is what I worked on today and I did a watermark logo for my designs too- I created the photo one a few days ago- Also today I designed another announcement for the biz- hopefully soon- (if I don’t have more weeks like this one) I’ll get enough samples done to start the biz on etsy. Anyways tell me what you think.(after- I also messed with the curves a little cuz’ it was so dark)

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  1. June 14, 2009 at 4:35 pm

    lookin good ali!

  2. June 14, 2009 at 7:07 pm

    That’s awesome! I hope you know you’ve got major talent! I’ve been so impressed by your and your design sense in photography and at home. Even you and your family are cute! Congratulations on the new home too! You’ll have to post pictures asap! Feel better soon beautiful, you’re doing great. I really do understand. Maybe try some sunshine therapy? Always does wonders for me. If not that, there’s always Ben and Jerry’s magical therapeutic properties!(0: *Hugs* I hope your upcoming week is better!

  3. June 14, 2009 at 9:20 pm

    Pics look awesome! You are soo talented. I wish I could do stuff like that. Her eyes do pop- it’s great!
    Totally understand those feelings. It’s tough being a stay at home mom and not always rewarding. It’s crazy how you can be around tons of people and still feel alone.. :( I think Phil’s going to help sub at Scout Camp this week- so if you wanna go shopping or drop the kids off for a nap or something lemme know! I’m thinking I might do some baking this week- I’m craving sweets so if there’s anything you want- lemme know!

  4. June 15, 2009 at 2:46 am

    you’re awesome Ali – I hope that you are doing better. I hate depression, I know what you mean. You kinda get mad at yourself because you’re not “supposed” to feel that way. But sometimes I wonder if it’s something we are supposed to go through or it wouldn’t randomly happen to us, even when we’re living our best! One day we’ll find the reason for it. But I love what you did with Brynley’s picture. She’s so sweet.

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