my blog has been neglected………… and you know when you haven’t talked to someone in a long time it feels kinda awkward to talk again…. kinda like well hmm I don’t know what to say?
Well that’s how I’ve been feeling.. that and if I’m honest, a whole lotta depression lately.

I don’t like to be down on my blog but I don’t like to lie either.This is my place to be just me– even crazy me.
Winter is kinda a rough time– It’s beautiful

But rough for me. There’s rarely sunshine it’s cloudy a lot and it’s to cold to get out and exercise or do a lot of projects– heck it’s to cold to get out at all for me especially with my kids in tow, the roads are slick and I am a paranoid driver- there’s weeks that I’m stuck inside all the time–

I felt like I was doing okay this year– I mean I’ve been actually making dinner for the fam{I know that one’s a shocker– I hate cooking} and Payton’s been getting his homework done-we’ve been doing Brynley’s school- the house is clean- laundry’s all done and caught up- I didn’t have a breakdown in church like I did last January- and that is always a big plus but..

I am halfway through book six in the harry potter series- and it’s only been a week
I’ve been wearing Dave’s T-shirts everyday- haven’t showered in 3days {and even though Dave says he loves me still- all gross and stinky- I hate feeling that way- I like to be the wife dressed and looking good for hubby when he gets home}
I have had absolutely no desire to do or create anything like I usually do,
I’ve been comparing myself to other people in blogland and of course I always come up short -way short.
haven’t felt like eating much, and I have wondered what the heck my purpose lately is.

All not really good signs-I see them- I recognize them– but still it’s hard to fight them and wake up nonetheless. So even though January has been so white and beautiful

 It’s not been a good month for me.

but here’s to turning a new leaf– Life is always better when I realize that Heavenly Father loves me I’m his child, I don’t have to be the best at anything {cuz I’m pretty sure I never will be} it’s okay to be just me even if i’m crazy sometimes, and to just do the best with the talents he’s givin me- and try to make my life something that when it’s all said and done It will be well.

Tis the season’ for…..

 

 did I mention crazy fun Christmas Parties

 Holiday Bokeh pictures

and of course all the yummy yummy treats

and lastly the sweet opening gifts